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Full Of Fuhhh. Im Full Of Energy At 5:10 In The Morning. Dear Self; Dont Ever Take A Midday Nap Again.

Punch Drunken Fade

Who Am I When Push Comes To Shove?

One Who Is Torn From This Plane Of Reality

Gone From All Things Physical At The Moment Of Impact

Black - Out, Fade In, Shit. Im Gone Again

(Whats Happening? What The Fuck Am I Doing?!)

Image Captureing Devices Record What Is Left Of Me

This Unavoidable Beast, The One Who Does Fight

Banefull, And Sharper In Movement Than A Blade

Singing In A Symphony Of Sweet Destruction

Fighting With Punch-Drunken Pride And Hatred

Shown Only With Fierce Blows From My Fists,

Knuckles Like Rounded Spikes Of Slighly Soft Steel

Weighed Behind 165 Pounds Of Now Gleaming Muscle

Elbows And Knees Like Heavy Hammerfalls Of Sledge

Only To Stain Them Red, Gourgous On My Paled Skin

With The Vigor And Sorrow Of My Opponent

He Whos Come To Realize Too Late

His Errorous Choice Of Words, His Pride And Opinion

That Tore Me Out Of Reality,

From A Friendly Kind Hearted Honorus One

To That Of A Foe, Deadly And Scarred

Ill Leave My Mark On Him Better

Than That Of His On My Visage,

This Vessels Been Battered Enough

Whats Left Of Me Strikes Out Hard,

At Any Open Nerve Any Frail Bone

And Any Previously Injured Marrs Of My Opponent

Noted Swiftly

Before My Waking Concious Fades Like His Initiative.

I Will Always Win, And If I Dont Youd Be Better Off A Killer

Finishing Me Off However You May Than The Victim

Who Let My Demons Come Back To Capture Him

For I Cannot Be Held Responsible For What They Will Do To You.

The Predefined Pattern

I Feel My Soul Is Strongly Connected To The Earth
For It Moves In A Fluid With The Seasons.
My Beautiful Fire Burns Bright In The Summer Heat,
Passion And Directive Obliged
The Wolf Of My Personality unPatiently Paws Forth
During September, Everything Falls Apart And Continues
Its Desolate, Cold Cleansing Reminders
Dragging Me Tooth And Nail All The Way Into
Withering Winters Arthritic Hands Of Barren Trees
Whereas My Heart Darkens Like Opium,
Splitting My Sanity Silently In Skewed Halves
And My Soul, And Heart Depart One Another
Ill Turn Black As The Unlit Coal, That Of Which
The Bricks Burn Brightly To Keep Warm With
Just Enough So’s Come Spring, The Robin As Well As The Crow
My Two Sides Converge Once More,
The New Model Year Me Arrives, Sly Like A Fox
Youthful, Regaining A Healthy Vigor, And Old Valor As Violently
Rears His Head, The Aggressive Wolf Of Summer
Hungering Again For Life, Love And Lust.
And I Bear My Fangs For Futures Narrow Vector Once More.

ATripp Back In Time (Super Old Love Poetry)

Meanwhile, Back Home
~ Chaos God ~

All The Crazy Partys, Killer Bonfires
And Any Drunken Night, You Were There.
Cars Broke, Familys Fought
But It Didnt Matter The Occasion
There Has Been No One In This World For Me
No Single Person Has Taught Me More
Than You My Love Because You Were There
If My Future Wernt So Uncertain
I Swear I Would Marry You Tonight, However
I Am Now A Soldier, And I Must Fight
I May Deploy In March, Or I May Sit Around
For Years. No Matter Where I Am
Or Anywhere I Will Be, Its Too Far From You
Always Too Far From Home. This, My Love
Is My Only Fear. Your Love For Me Is
Unquestionable, But Its Not Your Love I Question
All Of Us Are Weak, And Should That
Fragility Make Us Fray, We Would Stray.
I Dont Know If It Would Hurt, I Dont Know
If It Would Shatter A Love That Lasts Forever
I Still Fear To Find Out
Every Fiber In My Being Screams Out To Hold You
As I Once Did Not Ever So Long Ago
It Still Seems Like Forever By The Way
And I Admit, The Feelings Get Heavier By The Day
That Same Uncertainty I Used To Love, And
Living For Each Moment As It Comes, Its Done
No Fear That Tomorrow I May Die, But I Need
Anything And Everything To Assure Me
That We Will Be Alright
:The Scent Of Gunpowder In The Air
The Sounds Of Screams and Rounds All Around
The Thrilling Sights Of Targets Dropping To The Ground
Cold And Wet Is All I Can Feel, Down To The Bone
And Yet Your The Only Person On My Mind
Just A Little More Time My Love And We
Will Be Good And Done With This Bind

Miss Anna Bone, I …
~ Chaos God ~

For Years…
Four Long Years.
I Tried To Love And Hold You,
You Never Wanted Me Anyways.
Why Should When I Turn Away
Change What Your Heart
Had To Say?

Sometimes I Feel,
As If Your Love Proves False.
After That,
I Kneel Over And Convulse.
Without Your Love,
I Am Reduced To Nothing.

A Dampened Ember Fuming Out,
Once Was The Breath Of Life;
In Our Fire.
The One Fueled By Desire,
Transcribed Into Love;
As Burned The Funeral Pyre,
From Situations That Seemed;
So Dire…

And Sometimes I Feel,
As If Your Love Proves False.
After That,
I Kneel Over And Convulse.
Without Your Love,
I Am Reduced To Nothing.
Without Your Love,
I See How Numb I Am Becoming.


Sucks To Be You
~ Chaos God ~

Come To Me Darling
Bestow Upon Me
A Sigil Of Beauty
A Symptom: Peace

I Will Provide For You
Anything You Will Ever Need
Obey Any Wish Any Word
For You Are My Goddess

No Longer Shall I Reach
For A Strange Lover In The Night
You Are My Rock My Everything
For You Own My Soul

Over The Years Youve Been
The Best Thing Ive Ever Seen
Kindest Softest Love
Ever Shown To The Loss Of My Mind

For You Own My Soul
Because Ive Given You My Heart
However Broken Cold Or Withered
I Am Yours

Dispose Of Me As You Will
I Will Never Relinquish My Love
For I Can Never Repay My Debt
You Have Won Me Love
Sucks To Be You.

Reminisce
~ Chaos God ~

Remember The Good ‘Ol Days
When I Could Give You A Rose Of Metal
And Recite That My Love Would Last
Until The Last Of It Died, The Petal

Way Back When I Could Wake You
By Throwing Rocks At Your Window
I Cant Do That For A While Now
But You Can Use My Old Nintendo!

Those Memorys Are Acid Etched
In The Prologue Of My Mind
You Keep Me Going Strong Even
When I Feel Im Running Blind

Now When I Work I Refuse To Think
I Cannot Feel Anything No Pain
All My Wisping Memory Of Us
Pulls all Of My Heartache Down The Drain

I Wish For One Night That I May
Get To Talk All Night On The Telephone
There Really Is Things To Be Covered
That Old Perception Of Us Needs A New Home

Once Again I Can Only Let Go
Lock In For The Ride
Praying To Everything Ill Get You Back
Or Just Watch Everything Slide

Anatomic Instinct
~ Chaos God ~

Empty Minds
Empty Words
These Are What Holds Inside
Empty Men

Thoughtlessly Called To Bear
The Love Of A Woman
The Flourish Of A Child
By Some Anatomic Instinct

Devoid Of Anything At All
This Race Honestly Gets Me
My Heart Pumping
Adrenal Glands Palputaing

Few Are Similar To Me
In That Id Rather Kill Anyone
Than Actually Sit And Just
Breathe

Miss Anna Bone
~ Chaos God ~

So Ive Been Writing
With Your Eyes, Rich Like Chocolate
And Kisses Sweet As To Match
Your Longing Gaze Makes Me Tremble
With Butterflys And Love
Skin Such As Smooth, And An Embrace
Just As Warm As Crushed Velvet
This Is Why, Without You
My Heart Is Not Content
Any Song Can Twist My Heart In Knots
Because Every Note Reminds Me Of You
The Most Perfect Woman For Me
Miss Anna Bone

My Darling Dear
~ Chaos God ~

I Could Watch The World Die
I Woudnt Even Cry
But To See You Down And In Pain
Feels Like A Shank In My Brain
My Cold Black Little Heart Nearly Stopped
Trying Not To Rip Us Apart
Here And Now My Fires Fuming Out
Just When I Need You About
My Darling Dear I Miss You
I Only Wish To Kiss You
Like A Starling Singing In The Spring
Stomach Flutters At The Extacy You Bring
Miss Anna Bone I Miss You
My Mind Snapping, A Open Sinew
No Words Could Ever Express
But Dear, I Digress
I Remember How Your Eyes Glisten
Whenever I Would Listen
Anything You Said My Dear
Glued In My Head
Im Debating Wether To Send This Out
I Dont Know If I Have The Clout
The Nerve To Still Say I Love You
After The Shit Ive Pushed You Thru
Within Those Passed Four Weeks
Ive Bypassed All My Tweaks
I Have Transfigured More Into Myself, A Man
Out Of The Chaos Unveiled Direction, A Plan
I See All The Failure, The Errors Ive Made
Mostly I Just Wanted To Get Laid
Now That Ive Been Stripped Away
Theres So Much More To My Mainstay
I Never Could Quite See Beyond
The Darkness In My Eyes
Theres So Much More To Cherish Now
Your Love, Unbenounced More, But How?
In My Younger Years Of Life
I Never Needed Anyone, Not Even A Wife
But In The Other Hand Love
Were Still Younger Than The Morning Dove
I Have Always Been Me, A Poet And A Fighter
Now A Warrior Whos Prose May Lift A Girls Heart Higher
This Army Has Changed Me, Only For The Better
The Best Thing Anyone Could Do >WRIGHT ME A LETTER

Love Is Faith.
~ Chaos God ~

To The Only One
I Will Ever Confide
I Need This More
More Than You Know

The Only One Who
Could Reign Me In
All My Black Little Heart
Pounds For You

Your Myne
Me Own
My Very Love
Faith…

I Never Believe
In What I Dont See
No Physical Proof
But Because Of You
Oh I Do.
I Believe In Love

Still I Dont Want
To See The Day
We Say Goodbye Love
September 22nd,
Ill Be Gone

So Here It Is In Advance,
Goodbye My Love
Have Fun In College
Be A Good Girl
Not Like You Are

But Before You Do
Be My Bad Girl
Once More?

tumblrbot asked: WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE INANIMATE OBJECT?

My Motorcycle.

Do Your Biceps Hang Low?

Do Your Biceps Hang Low?

~ Chaos God ~

Do Your Biceps Hang Low,
Do Your Wings Wobble Too And Fro?
Can I Tie You In A Knot,
Can I Snap You Like A Bone?
Can I Thow You To The Ground?
Bleed Out My Honor As A Soldier,
Do Your Biceps Hang Low?

Does The Rope Hang High,
As You Plummet From The Sky?
How I Smile As You Choke,
Do You Spatter, Cough And Die?
Can I Watch In Joyful Bliss
Craving Your Apocolypse,
Does The Rope Hang High?

Do Your Opinions Flip-Flop,
Might I Use You As A Mop?
Before I Evicerate Your Soul,
May You Not Already Know.
If I Use You Like A Canvas,
And Make Real All Of This Damage,
Do Your Opinions Flip-Flop?

Does Your Weakness Hang Out,
And Flaunt Itself About?
As I Look You Up And Down,
Bringing Heavy Blows Against Your Crown,
Ill Rip Your Weak Clean Out!

Learning.

Learning

~ Chaos God ~

It Mighta Been The Ganja,
It Mighta Been The Breese
Tearing At The Leaves,
Bare Upon The Trees
(Something Like Feeling Yourself Let Go)
But In Its Immaculate Bueaty,
This Destruction Of I
Will Reforge My Mind
Without, My Will Is Blind
But My Interals Scream
“CHARGE FOREWARD”
“TAKE IT, BAR NO VIOLENCE”
“SPREAD YOUR WINGS AND DIVE”
So In Subtle Retribution
Of Where I Am,
This Body Of Anger
Rage And Hatred
My Soul Will Take Up
Thine Hammer
And Strike While This Wounds Still Hot.

I Used To Have A Passion.

I Used To Have A Passion

~ Chaos God ~

A Methodical Fire Behind Every Motion,
Movement Or Jesture.
I Used To Be That Soul Of Steel,
The Unbreakable One;
That Polish Bastard, I.
Now I Feel As Though My Soul,
(If There Is One In This Scarred Canopic Jar)
Is That Of Fresh Cleaned Slate.
Blank.
Empty Mind, Empty Stomach;
Heart Still Blacker Than Pitch.
I Believe I Need Something, Anything
To Rekindle The Flame Of My Former Self.
To Become That All Encompassing Inferno,
Once Again.

Numbers. (a Tribute)

Numbers

~ Chaos God ~

Very Few Numbers Reach The Core
Right Behind The Solarplex

The TWENTY AND FOUR  Notes
That Conveys More Emotion
Than I Have Shown In Years

The TWENTY AND ONE Rounds
Fired Through A 5.56 Barrel
Framing And Honoring One
Flayed Soldiers Lifeblood

The THREE Calls
For The Same Warrior
With The Disonace Of Silence

And Every ONE Of My Brothers
Missing, Dead Or Captive
You Will Not Be Forgotten
By Those Who Have Known
Life On The Lines